Hard Day...

I'm not going to sugar coat this - I had a really hard day! I know, I know - yesterday I was all about the celebration and the gift - and I still am - seriously I am - However, there is only one me and I have 11 students in my classroom and another 10 students on our campus who see me as the fountain of water from which they can fill their well of need - and I'll tell you - some days I run out of water before they run out of need! And some days, it is not the water I have to offer which will quench their need - and sometimes, after I have given it all to the children - because I work for them - well, sometimes the adults are just - well, just - well, they are just juvenile! Sometimes the adults lie, and sometimes the adults have their personal agenda's which have nothing to do with the best interest of the children - and today I had to bite my tongue so darn hard it bled. I did though, I bit my tongue, then I tried to vent - then I cried - after that I realized I need to smile and nod - really, I just need to smile and nod. Many parents don't want me to teach their children -just keep them busy and don't call me - Many general education teachers look down their collective noses' (is that a plural possessive?) at special education - Oh, they tell you one thing or another thing, they look you in the eye and they are lying - right there, lying! That amazes me, how you can look me in the eye, lie, know I know your lying, and not even blink - Funny how you can take two years to build something and ten minutes to have it all destroyed! Two minutes can destroy so much, heck - ten seconds can destroy. Words once said cannot be pulled back, actions once taken cannot be stopped - So what did we learn today boys and girls - Yes, that is correct - chant The Serenity  Prayer over and over again. Accept your limits. Accept your imperfections - do the best you can - control what is yours, then let go of the rest - Pray, pray a lot!
Then sometimes you just have to scream! That is OK, screaming is OK! Be sure you are alone. NBA kickoff tonight, world series tomorrow, JETS are winning, holidays are coming! Smile and nod Lisa, smile and nod for there isn't shxx you can do about any of it. Dang, I don't like that -