The Journey

We don't really know where life is going to take us. We set out with goals and ideas; we make plans, we have dreams - one day we are sailing on a smooth body of water, with the sun warming our face and the wind clearing our mind...the next day we are standing at a crossroad, with no idea which way to go. If we are lucky (and I am) when at this confounding crossroad we won't be standing alone. The love of family & friends will help us find the correct direction. I don't know about tomorrow. My life, at 48, this isn't how I planned my life! Ah, the best laid plans of mice and men! Here I am though, what am I suppose to do? I am so blessed! My Poopy Sister flew to LA, packed my stuff, then drove with me back here to TX. She is sick with exhaustion, I am numb. We just don't know do we? I have spent most of my life being the strong one, the dependable one, I had a life plan...then one day all of that is changed. Adapt, adjust, overcome - What am I going to do with the rest of my life? It is mind boggling, yet I know moving forward is the only thing to do. Movement is life! Empty the backpack, give thanks for what you have, and remember to breathe! That is an important one...the breathing! Has anyone seen me? Ha, that's how it feels! I reckon at one time or another we all face this question. Has anyone seen me? Maybe I am on a milk carton somewhere! No, I wasn't expecting, at 48, starting over...I am the fortunate one - all the people who love and support me have made a soft place for me to land. Now I have to find my legs again, find a new voice, reinvent myself...shucks that sounds like a lot. Adapt, adjust, overcome...and remember to breathe. Guess I better keep it simple for a while. Besides this could be fun, recreating yourself - right? I know I am never alone, I know I am loved, I know there is a reason for everything...I only need be patient and quiet - I only need to still my mind so I might hear the message that will direct me. I can do that - I won't become homeless, I won't be hungry, my heart won't become cold, I will not stop seeking the good in people, I will continue with humble gratitude, I will believe everything happens for a reason - I just need patience until the reason is revealed; I will laugh more and worry less - OK, I am a born worrier, but I'm going to try. Dang, this reinventing oneself...I'm too old for this-or maybe I'm too young for this. Either way, a girl has to do what a girls has to do! Will someone wake me when it's over?