Mothers Day

I have to say today is not one of my favorite days.  It reminds me of having lost two mothers.  Though I have been blessed with the love of many women who have loved me as their own - well, there was only one Momma in my life.  She was the sun in the sky and the stars in the constellations.  I have a picture of Mommie, she is sitting at the table, there I am hanging on her arm.  In another picture she is on the couch, there I am hanging on her arm.  I was only three or four years old - I reckon I held on to her from the moment she brought me home.  Even today, I hang on to her.  With all I do I try to make her proud.  I think of her looking down from heaven, and I want to be sure she is smiling.  You never outgrow the need for your Mom.  Don't know why that is - If you are lucky, as I was, you develop a relationship as an adult with your Mom.  A time when you see each other as people - When you as an adult are still your Mommie's little girl yet, you are also her friend.  As teenagers it is difficult to be friends with our Moms.  Teenagers girls are striving for identity and Moms are trying to save us from ourselves.  Then one day, over time, we grow up - and we recognize the wisdom our Mothers possess.  One day we are so grateful for their guidance, their words of wisdom, their support, and their unconditional love.  When we get to this point in our lives, we are really lucky.  If you still have your Mom, and you have this relationship with her - if you can still have lunch with her, or go shopping, or be with her on this day - thank your lucky stars.  As I sit here, just wanting this day to be over - I am thankful for all the women who have loved me, who have given me guidance, who have supported me - but I only had one Mommie.  After all these years that big hole in my heart has never been filled.  You never know when the last time will be the last time, so make every moment matter.  Celebrate every moment.  Soak her in, and keep her close - Goodness I miss you Mommie, I know you are keeping watch over me, I love you still and always.