Day 1

It is hard to believe a year has past, almost feels like I never left Malone from last summer. Just like last summer my first day has brought rain and thunderstorms. Now I realize North Country folks are sick of rain, I like The rain as we see so little of it in So Cal. Of course, NC weather changes rapidly- the sun is shining already, going to be a beautiful day! This whole Anthony acquittal has folks in an uproar! That mom, what is her name, Casey? Sounds like she got away with murder. I am not surprised. I have not follows the trial, it all was just so sad and twisted. It is difficult understanding how the prosecution could not remove reasonable doubt. From what I have read today this is why the jury acquitted her-not because she was innocent, more because the prosecution did not put on a solid case. It outrages us that is for sure. We are so much more cynical aren't we? Anytime a child goes missing or is found dead we jump to the conclusion the mom or dad did it. If a spouse is found dead, the other spouse is guilty! It is sad really, probably because it is true. Our society has made it easier to give up custody of your child than your dog yet some parents kill their children. You have to be sick, really demented to kill a child, but to kill your own child-that is beyond comprehension. The members of that jury are going to have to hide. Some loon out there will commit an act of stupidity as a means of showing their disgust regarding the verdict. I'm glad I wasn't on that jury- I could not have been, I would vote guilty no matter the evidence. That women killed her child either by commission or omission...either way she should be in jail the test of her life! What kind of life can she have anyway? Estranged from her family, killing her child, her face on every newspaper and magazine cover...I understand she likes to party, probably she will go dancing. She will have to move, color her hair, change her look-she will have to do something. I wonder what she is thinking? Relief because she really was innocent or does she feel invincible because she got away with murder? Either way, God knows the truth and I trust he will distribute justice for that little girl. Oh we live in disturbing times, some days I wonder why try? What is the point of doing the"right" thing when those who do so much wrong appear to have it all? Personally, it is faith which carries me. Faith, that when my time here on Earth is done I will go to heaven, be reunited with all my loved ones, live that eternal life of happiness. Time here on Earth is short as the blink of an eye-eternity is way longer! That phrase about it being easier to gain forgiveness than it is to gain permission...in a nutshell I believe many people live that way; "I will just do what I want, then on my deathbed give confession and I am forgiven, bingo off to heaven I go." Tempting isn't it? Just do whatever floats your boat regardless how wrong or immoral your behavior is, wait until the end, ask for forgiveness, and it's all good. The Buddhist belief that you keep coming back until you get it right, that sounds fair. Unless you are one sick SOB and mote time living provides you with more opportunity to be a real bad person. Who knows? These are questions many of us struggle with everyday. We live our lives doing the very best we can, we get the short end of the stick time after time-it can draw a person to finally throw in the towel! Why not? If our kindness, charity, loyalty bring us continued slaps in the face, then why bother? Well, bother bother because known
G right from wrong compels you to. Commit random, or deliberate acts of kindness because your kindness may effect a person making continued bad Choices- what you do as charity, or choose to do because it is the right thing to do, well your behavior may save a child's life. Offering your best could be the difference which in turn will save someone else from suffering. And when events throw us into incomprehensible rage, we must remain true to faith-we must continue clinging to those threads of hope, we must continue moving forward-because we never really know if our kind, moral, or generosity will save someone else incredible pain. Most likely we will never know, again faith is the key...when we can only see or feel the burdens, it is during these decision making times when choosing to do the "right" thing is most difficult and most easy-either way you look at it, someone out there, someone you may or may not know-well they are going to need you-so we have to find light in the dark of night-strength during times of weariness, hope during moments of despair...because there are many other babies born into circumstances and our choices may be the only chance they have for happiness. Doesn't matter what anyone tells me, I believe we are responsible for one another, as such we are responsible in serving to help and in doing the right thing because our behavior does impact so many other people-we are all connected, and the saying; "only as strong as your weakest link, well that is true. We have to help one another so our chain of humanity is so strong it can overcome all the desperate children who cry themselves to sleep each night.