As with any family, some bond are closer than others...hoever the bond between sisters is the srongest. Sisters will fight and they will make io. Sisters will speak their truth, and you will listen. When all your cards are gone it is your sisters who replenish your deck. I have a biological sister I have not seen in 20 years or so. Once every few years I seal with her on the telephone; that is by sheer coincidence. As much asnit pains me, all I can do is respect her desire and move forward. I do not know my niece and nephew. They are grown, one in college the other in HS. That is sad. There was a time when the two of us were all we had, so we took care of one another. Then one day she was gone and that ws that. She didn't look back, and as she grew older she did not want to repair and rebuild our relationship. And for as many nights I cried myself to sleep, wondering what I had done, what was so awful in me that she would just leave and never come back. God does provide for in place of the one sister I lost I was given 3 more (Eileen counts in my book). Through the years we have all known happiness and we have all known pain. Together we buried our parents and to brothers. I do not believe any other relationship is quite like that of sisters-though we disagree, or we don't approve, in the end we are there for one another. We love one another the best way we know how. What our sisters offer us may not be what we want, but we take it anyway-there is an unconditional guarantee which comes with sisterhood. We may not want any part of ourmsiblings lives, yet we are there with them.
I spent this past week with two of my sisters. Rosie, our hostess did everything she coils so we would have a food time. and we did have a good time! Even if we had done nothing I thinknwe would still remember this as the summer of healing. Over the past week some ghosts were let go. It was a wonderful week! Life throws us so curve balls you need a sister to help you hold the bat, ot tell when to dunk. And when we are making the worst possible life choice it Is our aiatwrtrailing behind us, picking up the pieces of us so we can get put back together again. We fight, don't speak one another, we we will never speak to"hher" again, yet we always do. It takes some work, and it takes time...I believe we are on the right path. I pray we are. We are all getting of ages when every moment is a precious gifts, thus we have no time to waste on what happened twenty years ago. This is our time to be together as family and friends. As we continue on our life's journey it is great a great comfort having these remarkable women to all my sisters. One door was closed, many other doors opened. Evey day one of my gives me a gift, as small a phone call or as big as a phone call. I know I will never be hungry or homeless, I will not be alone, one of my siaters will rescue me from a disater I created. Not a one of us is perfect, together we are perfection.
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