Cages

Its all about the cages. Society picks labels, boxes, and cages - we even choose, at times to live in the cages others put out there for us. Zuko, he had a cage, we had to put a lock on it because he could get out by himself. So I'm thinking if Zuko can figure out how to get out of the cage we all can. Life is too short, which is a boring cliche', yet none the less true. My 83 year old father says life is too short - 83 years a good long life - still it is too short. 48 years & 17 days, well that is way too short.
We really must find a way to break out of these self imposed, or society imposed, or family imposed, or expectation imposed cages! At present my cage is medically imposed - but the cage is in the garage. I refuse it. Past few days I have! paid a price for refusing the cage.  Good for me! Today is the last day of Harness Racing.  Reckon the last time I will stand next to my Dad and watch the horses through turn 1 & 2, then sprinting down the backstretch. I have been in bed the past couple of days. Got out of that cage and really tore up the town! I cant miss this day.  It is going to rain, Daddy will know what horses are mudders - he picks the winners.  I pick the horses with the nice names...or the horse Mr. Smith is driving - he seldom loses. If he loses the first heat, he won't lose the second heat, guaranteed - well, unless his horse breaks.
Yes I will get down to the fairgrounds today, stand next to my father and marvel at how far we have come...and how far we need to go - though I have come to realize this is as far as he can go. He loves me in the way he can. That is it!
Oh, and the other day I saw the "bastard" he was walking towards me and I towards him - there was a brief moment of eye contact, the question hung in the space between us "Are you going to speak?" Hell no, I said that with my eyes - we passed without a glance. He sells insurance and financial planning things - I want to take out a full page ad in the local paper telling people not to buy anything from this rapist, child molester, thief of innonence! Could I be sued for slander. I am telling the truth. Paper probably wouldn't print it anyway, oh but a great cage to tear to shreds, wouldn't it be.
The elephant in the blog - my medical cage sucks! I am sorry, I am no longer able to just smile and say "fine." I am going to be fine! I am going to do everything on my "Bucket List", it is a mighty long list! Shari, I am coming to Hawaii! However, I have to vent more. Get some of this frustration out. I do that through writing - don't take it all serious...and do not feel sympathy for me! There are many people with far heavier crosses than mine. I don't know, maybe a peek inside the window of a spirited woman who happens to have this blasted medical cage, well who knows, maybe it will help someone else or provide a bit of insight. If nothing else, it will help me lighten my load - and it is my blog! I don't mean that. I don't want to burden anyone, don't you go worrying about me...God made one tough cookie here...oooooh, I have Grandma's Peanut Butter cookies in the kitchen, mmmmmmm!
Had fried dough last night, not a good night time food - but man it tasted good.  Frenchy's Fried Dough, its delicious - absolutely bad or you, but so good for you - thats another cage - the whole eat this don't eat that, your too fat, your too thin (yes you can be too thin) this causes cancer, this causes your hair to fall out, this will help you live longer...PLEASE!!!! Moderation, fried dough I eat once a year, with a couple hot sausage from JO JO's (man are they good) you know what, if that is going to kill me, the joke is on those Drs. at Cedars! Ha, that would be funny! The whole weight cage and food cage, it is all propaganda put out by prescription drug companies so we get more prescription drugs.  Insurance companies and Prescription drug companies, they run our country.  It is not the President, or Congress - nope, Drug & Insurance companies decide what happens - oh and China because they pretty much own us - Who has the most Olympic Medals? Coincedence? I think not!
Until then - Peace Out